Wednesday, June 30, 2010

"One of these days Alice. . . . ."

Have you ever had one of those days where a direct slap in the face would feel better than the stab in your heart? Well, I am having one of those days. Right. Now.
Actually, I have been "moody" sorta-kinda, all week. Don't bother trying to console me. I refuse consolation right now - I do however want to inflict pain on those that are creating the "pain" in my life.

Now, with that said and off my chest, all will be fine. I wouldn't really, intentionally "hurt" anyone. That isn't my nature. But, I can think it at times if it makes me feel a little bit better.

I know God says "as a man thinketh, so is he", but I fight the impulse to be continually spiteful at times like this in my life. I try to, instead, think more pleasant thoughts. But I don't always succeed. If that makes me horrible, well. . . . "as a man thinketh, so is he".

Yes, this makes my head hurt. And my heart. And my spirit.

I feel a little like Jackie Gleason: "One of these days Alice, kapow, right to the moon."

PS - Kelly, this is NOT directed at you.

2 comments:

  1. I'm here if you want to vent!!! You know my number. Praying for you dear friend.

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