Well, Now.

Well, now.  I feel as if it has been a hundred years since I've posted on any of my blogs!  One hundred long, grueling years.  It's not because of lack of material.  It's not because of lack of time ~ well, maybe a itsy bit there.  It's not because I didn't want to, because I did.  I truly did!  I think it was because my spirit and I were at conflict with each other.  We were totally out of sync.  Totally.  I feel I'm just rounding that corner to some kind of compromise with my self.  We aren't the friends we were a couple months ago.  And let me just tell ya ~ not being friendly with yourself is worse than fighting with yourself.  At least if you fight with yourself one side wins.  Kind of a "win, win" for me, or a "lose, lose" ~ depending on the mood I'm in.

But being at odds with myself, well, let's just say: "No one wins." and be done with it.  There's no compromise, no working through it, no give or take, no nothing!  So, coming around the bend is a big deal for me.  I don't know what has changed within ('cause all external problems are still here), but something feels better.  I will take it.  I will build upon it.  I will conquer whatever that conflict is.

I'm coming along.  Inch by inch.  Step by step.  Day by day. 

And. . . . . I'm looking forward to blogging away in this brand new year.